Chinese New Year

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I spent my Chinese New Year Eve on the aircraft, by watching those fireworks shinging in the sky. The whole city was covered by the flashy fireworks exploding in the sky..It was so beautiful, beautiful enough to make me burst to tears. The day I arrived at home, is the day I finished my Dog year finally. Bad Luck gone? I wish so...Many days I have been waiting for the fascinating chinese new year to spend the holiday with my parents without any work load stress on my mind.

I left Beijing, I came back and I saw my sisters, my ex-bf, my best friend, and rui rui. I feel quite different this time, It has changed, I mean maybe I have changed. I feel lazy to entertain people around who I care about all the time, I feel lazy to smile to others even though I should have done. I feel lazy to go out with friends no matter how attractive the event gonna be. I feel so down even though everything seems go on smoothly at the end of my DOG year.

It gonna be different this year, is it? Him went to Japan with his parents again. suddently, he stops calling me for several days. It feels wired anyway. Even though we had broken up with each other ages ago. He kept calling me almost everyday, no matter where he is, even after he went back to HK. I feel almost the same, as we are still stick together. Valentine's day, I got his roses. It was the first time he bought me roses on the valentine's day. lol...even after we broke up. It feels very warm and sweet. I received several bunches of roses on the valentine's day, and even the chocolate. lol. Things are strange, I still feel like I did get nothing at all.

Maybe the inside loneliness is making myself confused all the time. I feel like I need someone, however, I really don't know who I should have run to at the end. Maybe I still enjoy the single status, or maybe I never really loved this status. I want to be protected, and the fear of being alone is so enomrous to bear with. I am getting really tired now. By getting home alone, facing to the wall by myself, listening to the sorrow music, watching the drama without sharing any affection, hehe.....Damn, I am promoting independence all the time, and I feel like now I am betraying myself in principle cause I never be able to manage being alone by myself.

Ok, I am heading back to Beijing tomorrow by myself again. After a long or kinda long vacation back home, I need to go back to my work again......Right, things have to continue, and my love as well...Who gonna be the MR. RIGHT for me. where did I go right? What I have done is wrong? ...I am waiting for the answer ...Who will tell me....

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	WangCharles发表: hi, two yeas ago.... we met in Birmingham... don't know that if you still remember me... accidentially, i am in Beijing now. it seems that you are in King & Wood beijing office... but, did you leave? or still in somewhere of beijing? give me a note, please 3 月 18 日
	chenyuemo发表: 人生不就是一个新年接着另一个新年吗。。。等有一天都过完了，，咱就下面接着跳哦！！呵呵 3 月 17 日
	YuanLiang发表: Hi, Dancing Queen. It has been a long time. How is everything? Have you got used to the life in Beijing? Acturally, You don't like the single status at all. You still live in the days that are gone. You won't be happy until you finally find your MR.RIGHT. Anyway, may you happy. 3 月 15 日
	willluo发表: 想快点回国了，回国发展明智的选择啊:) 新年快乐, 恭喜发财! 3 月 9 日
	弓长乐乐发表: 天啊`~ 还素满片的英文呢`` 呵呵最近好不~~ 熟悉的陌生人~ 偶尔翻起曾经的回复~~ 找到了老朋友们~ 3 月 6 日
	末末发表: 恩..该死的想不起来为什么小时侯的春节过的那么开心... 3 月 6 日
	Andrew发表: The simple answer is know yourself, be content with who you are, what you want and the rest will follow.. 3 月 1 日
	赵寅发表: Plz keep laughing 2 月 28 日
	zeee发表: Happy Chinese new year^_^ 2 月 26 日
	张思牧发表: There are many many questions that have absoulately no answer at all, or you have to find answers which you think suit yourself, no body can tell you any answer, you are on your own to find our what is you turely want, search the bottom of your heart and stop confuse yourself. You don't wait for the answer, you go to find them out, that's what everyone does, eventually and sometime at a cost. Also forgive me for being rude, but that guy call you everyday after you broke up with him ages ago? Obviousely, you are just like a pack of snack to him, he needs snack( childish), but he'll throw it away as soon as he has a better thing to do, and as a lawyer, this shouldn't happen to you. Btw, you studied law in UK? 2 月 23 日

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