I didn’t attend any lecture today, I feel like being flung poo onto my face after I have got the feedback from the cursed public law supervisor.

 Kept on sending txt with Stan 4 the whole night, was complaining about the discrimination things in the arms of him, I don’t even know if I m a lucky girl who can get some backup from some considerate people or I just kind of foxy bitch who can ignore people’s affection.

I can not simply evade my responsibilities by saying I have been telling the truth to all of us. It is unjustified and unfavourable to any of us as well. It will be our anniversary soon in the coming Thursday, him has been planning about the sweet trip to some countryside with me next weekend since that is what I would like to. I felt shamed when he is holding me tight and listen to my stories about the shit.

I don’t know how to face him when the message’s tone is ringing all the time. He knows what’s going on, and he just tries his best to make me at ease to face to all of the problems. Being yourself is not an easy thing, be perseverant, endurance, positive thinking, and always motivate and trust. It has taken so long between me and him to build up the annexation without suspicious doubt.

I have been working on the training contract things for a while, and start boosting my confidence a little bit since I have got the interview invitation from Norton Rose, the big international law firm in London.

I have just been informed that the interview is based on the assessment and interactive group work including the one to one interview with partner and the constant presentation about the analytical advice for the hypothetical client after the team discussion. Unsympathetic! I have to say, I m faithless.

When you are surrounded by bulks of native speakers, you will be anxious for no reason and thus will lose the way to express yourself explicitly in a persuasive way.

Met Keith Uff for the progress review this morning, he was respectful and moderate. He said he was impressed by my English communication skills which the ordinary Chinese students don’t have. 

 I appreciated for this eulogy while I have got the feedback from my public law supervisor which is in an entirely opposite way. I m not saying that he frustrated me by using the particular words such as “poor English expression” and “can’t explicitly deliver the potential you have got”.

I m offended by his way to pick out the trifling spelling mistakes which everyone including the English ppl would make and focus on that. It is unfair to justify my English skill by looking at my surname and conclude my poor English based on my nationality!

If he gave me more negative comments on my unfavourable constructed content, I probably would not have been pissed off.

On what extent, he could point his finger on me and claim my insufficient acknowledgement about the British politics just because I have been to this country for only 2 years?

For what fundamental theory can he finish off the topic by saying my opposite opinion on Tony Blair’s notorious Anti-Terror Detention Bill which has led political controversial atmosphere recently is just an unjustified gossip without relevant   authorities which could be deprived to support! Why I can’t describe that stepping down Prime Minister as a ‘lame duck’ because I just think he is!!!

Why can’t Chinese girl be interested in English politics and want to deliver some of the opinions even based on the weakened academic background not by me myself, but from his point of view?

 I m frustrated, and desperate, by his conclusion that I m very poor in English expression, and I have to work harder to improve it to illustrate my potential in answering the legal questions in the examination later on.

I just simply don’t like his way to do it!

Interview is coming soon on 1^st of February;

the workshops I have attended are apparently very helpful and efficient. The cruel requirement to express yourself in the interview accurately without any grammar mistake, and deliver the information and opinion in a precise professional legally way is kind of incompatible account to me.

I don’t think I can make it even though I have commenced the research of that law firm about their recent release and business.

English, my defect? My life?

I m willing to become a qualified solicitor rather than a philologist, lose my confidence by this……

who can tell me if I m really poor in English?