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Chinese New YearI spent my Chinese New Year Eve on the aircraft, by watching those fireworks shinging in the sky. The whole city was covered by the flashy fireworks exploding in the sky..It was so beautiful, beautiful enough to make me burst to tears. The day I arrived at home, is the day I finished my Dog year finally. Bad Luck gone? I wish so...Many days I have been waiting for the fascinating chinese new year to spend the holiday with my parents without any work load stress on my mind.
I left Beijing, I came back and I saw my sisters, my ex-bf, my best friend, and rui rui. I feel quite different this time, It has changed, I mean maybe I have changed. I feel lazy to entertain people around who I care about all the time, I feel lazy to smile to others even though I should have done. I feel lazy to go out with friends no matter how attractive the event gonna be. I feel so down even though everything seems go on smoothly at the end of my DOG year.
It gonna be different this year, is it? Him went to Japan with his parents again. suddently, he stops calling me for several days. It feels wired anyway. Even though we had broken up with each other ages ago. He kept calling me almost everyday, no matter where he is, even after he went back to HK. I feel almost the same, as we are still stick together. Valentine's day, I got his roses. It was the first time he bought me roses on the valentine's day. lol...even after we broke up. It feels very warm and sweet. I received several bunches of roses on the valentine's day, and even the chocolate. lol. Things are strange, I still feel like I did get nothing at all.
Maybe the inside loneliness is making myself confused all the time. I feel like I need someone, however, I really don't know who I should have run to at the end. Maybe I still enjoy the single status, or maybe I never really loved this status. I want to be protected, and the fear of being alone is so enomrous to bear with. I am getting really tired now. By getting home alone, facing to the wall by myself, listening to the sorrow music, watching the drama without sharing any affection, hehe.....Damn, I am promoting independence all the time, and I feel like now I am betraying myself in principle cause I never be able to manage being alone by myself.
Ok, I am heading back to Beijing tomorrow by myself again. After a long or kinda long vacation back home, I need to go back to my work again......Right, things have to continue, and my love as well...Who gonna be the MR. RIGHT for me. where did I go right? What I have done is wrong? ...I am waiting for the answer ...Who will tell me....
Anti Valentine's day
The excess baggage that is attached with Love.
How many times have you wanted to hang out with your friend only to find out that they HAVE to spend time with their lover? What you can do on Valentines. |
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這是第幾個沒有你的生日,
我已經不再記得,
只是想知道在沒有你的日子裏,
我依然清晰地記得回憶和快樂。。 你的生日,
我的生日,
水瓶座的生日。。。
祝我生日快樂。。。
但我要把最好的祝福,
全部留給你。。 to my EX.....
Happy Birthday..
to KoKo...
Happy Birthday...
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Back to Birmingham after a few days flee, I don’t know whether I have sufficient refreshed bravery to face to those challenges and tragedies.
Being myself is not as what I anticipated before I commerce this trip. Everything seems run smoothly, disregarding to my obsession. Back to the reality, I still have to carry on all of these stuff.
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Went to London last Friday for the dinner and drink with Shaleem and her solicitors friends, met some insurance officers, and was talking about the current reflection of the enormous revolution in the Chinese insurance system, it is kind of hypersensitive topic since the extreme weakness and too many loopholes.
It will be a immense opportunities for those professional people in UK or other western countries to go to china and help Chinese government to build up the entirely new system by adopting the effect and positive aspects of the modern insurance construction.
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There is another big issue happened to me after I m back, I have got an interview today at 3pm with the NHS!
Shaleem introduced me this part time job to be interpreter for the local health services. It is a good deal which helps me a lot with my work experience.
Moreover, I can occupy all of my spare time by helping those people based on need, and support those overseas Chinese people to gain the free service from British Government to improve their health.
Both are substantial constructively. I hope I can get the job as soon as possible, and start serving.

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Good luck, koko….
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I went to the law fair today in Great Hall.

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I went directly to the Norton Rose since I have been invited to the interview on 1st of February. I spoke to one of the ladies in black suit who looks nice and amicable.
I have been surprised that they have just invited 40 candidates for the interview who are absolutely outstanding and therefore have been selected from the 3000 application forms. So amazing I am one of them and the lady who I spoke to was the recruitment manager who wrote me email. Good sign! Is it? It does boost my confidence now.
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The more important thing I have met today is there was actually a Chinese trainee solicitor who represented Herbert Smith in the law fair. It is rare to see any overseas qualified solicitors who actually have the opportunities to attend these events on behalf of the whole firm! What I can say? Fantastic! I spoke to him, and gained a lot of enormously important information from the chat as well. He was working in the Beijing law firm last year which has given him the vigorous legal experience background among numerous competitors. Also, he said it is laborious for Chinese students to obtain the training contract here due to the obstacle of the language skill.
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However, it will be a bit easier if I am scheduling to apply for the training contract in Hong Kong. I will try my best to make it! As long as I have found some sources of confidences. Initiative, commitment, gallantry, commercial awareness, all of these crucial elements involved in this truculent battle will be vital to those ones who can survive. I will be one of them, and I am sure that I can make it. Positive thinking will make everything possible! So why not?

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I have dated my tutor Kyriaki Noussia for a drink tomorrow night, there will be some of my German friends and one of my BBC friends who is doing law degree as well. Him will ask his German tutor and her friend to join us.
Unfortunately, Shaleem won’t be able to make it due to the scheduled conference in London on the following day. Nora will be working on Thursday. But I am sure it will be fun anyway!
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Going to London on Friday, for the open day of Simmons & Simmons Hong Kong office. I haven’t got any clue whether I should go or not, since they require me to submit my CV to secure my seat. However, it will not be a good idea to send them CV before I have fully prepared and get my CV checked by the professional advisor from Career Centre.
I just can’t wait to meet MayQ, miss her a lot. I haven’t seen her for a long time, don’t know whether she is still fighting against the unequal destiny. I hope everything will be going on well with she and her life.
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I was having coffee with Christine this afternoon after the law fair, she was crying out in front me of. Sign! I thought she should be a resolute English girl when the tragedy happens. She was totally knocked down by the unpredictable accident.
I don’t know how to comfort her at all. She was in the same situation as I do a few weeks ago. Her BF treats her really well, but she was falling for someone else. Poor girl… she had already cut up the ambiguous relationship between she and that unlucky boy.

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However, I am still indeterminate what should I do with this complex thing at all. Maybe time will tell. Yes. But, so far, I know all of my friends are against St@n since we have known each other for only 1 month. But I have been going out with Him for 1 year. And tomorrow will be our anniversary. Sign!
So many things happened recently, so many affinities should be compromised at the moment, I just feel really stressed and panic without specific reason.
Those people who know me well will know that I always lock myself into the tiny closet when I m facing to some dilemma that I can’t solve. If I find I m incapable to settle down the problem, I probably will choose the way to escape. Even I know to flee is not the best solution.
Anyway, I hope I won’t evade all of these stuff finally, I hope there will be the way to be myself, follow my heart and forget about all those crap.
Work hard, koko….
and that is your dream..
Peace…..

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You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you
I know i should tell you how i fell
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you
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You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you
Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...
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昨天我和eva, annie, 老高一起去了巴斯,帶了兩車xy travel的夥計們, 一整天天氣都很不錯,三個小時的車程沒有白費。 由於我和annie的車上還有鬼佬,我必須用英文翻譯一次我們的所有通知, 哈哈哈,最重要的就是我對巴斯和巨石陣一無所知。 被逼無奈,我居然在前天晚上做起了research....暈倒。。。 他的歷史是5000年,分了四次完成, 現在人們對巨石陣的了解只有他的年齡和他的物質構造。 但是卻沒有任何人知道這個孤立的存在于曠野之中的"建築"的用處 因爲在石頭的空動蕩中曾經找到了一些火化過的人類骨頭成分, 有人猜測這是古代用來做human sacrifice的。 但更有人說這是一個宗教祭祀儀式的地方。 更有人說這是外星人的傑作, 或者是古代君王的calender. 還有人說這是有天文學價值的東西, 但是研究表明,這些種種都受到了挑戰, 石頭從哪裏而來? 研究表明是south west of wales,這就意味著運輸上另外一個謎。 第二個比較大的建築過程,石頭超重達到5000tonnes,水運已經不可能, mordern calculation顯示,有可能是運用sledges, rollers, leather和at least 600 men's labour 才有可能在超過幾億個小時的時間當中運輸這些石頭。 爲什麽要做這麽大的工程,而且是在不同的年代,幾千年的歷史之後, 重新用同樣的方法建造同樣的東西,但是卻根本不知道這個東西的用處。 這個謎,估計能讓人類文明頭疼一陣子。 stonehenge真得很漂亮, 站在他面前的感覺就是那種體會到一種難以形容的神奇力量在你的身體裏。 那種形容不是說可以用壯觀來表示。 與其說這是因爲這些神奇的東西讓人着迷,更可以説是因爲着迷的神奇讓人完全不能夠領會, 這才是他的美妙之処。 巴斯是一個更加漂亮的地方, 想不到這種英國的小城鎮還有這樣的感覺, 建在小山上,很像瑞士的風格,超級漂亮,超級由歐洲風格。 其實能夠生活在這樣的小城市裏是應該更加開心的吧? 也許是因爲壓力的原因, 所以讓人常常想要尋找一些放鬆的生活方式來逃避自己。 這個小城市裏什麽都有,shop裏的東西非常特別。 最重要的事,走在街上,可以感覺到一些快樂。 而這個快樂也許是我一輩子的記憶,或者說可能永遠也只能是記憶。 最古老的punny loll.1680年的餐廳, slowly cooked的hunter's chicken,still water,超級小的table, disney land的鬼娃娃mug, 廣場上唱歌的黑人樂手, 步行街上的流浪畫家, card shop裏的小機器人, 所有的一切仿佛都特別浪漫,很留戀,只可惜,有時候, 到了開車的時候,什麽都要放下。。。。。。。 呵呵,現實還是現實,路還是要繼續走, 雖然可能會再回頭的一瞬間忘記了什麽,但是我還是會走。 就像留下來跟本只是繼續作夢一樣。。。 12/11/2005,巴斯,我會記得這個日子。![]()
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RMB 電臺就要正式開播了!!!
結束了很長時間的等待,終于可以等到節目開始正式播出,很高 興得到多方面的支持,也希望所有的朋友都能支持我們和這個電臺, 出生的電臺只是爲了讓所有喜歡音樂的朋友都有地方可以了解音樂, 探討音樂,這裡沒有壓力,只有快樂。
因爲RMB相信的是用音樂連接起來的友誼。
請大家一定要去支持我們和我們的電臺,加入我們的隊伍。
節目時間表暫時制定如下:
下周二
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昨天晚上去了chinese party,好像很久没有这么疯过了,见到了很多朋友,很多很久没有见到了的朋友,感觉特别好,有时候觉得自己的生活确实是需要一些情趣,就是在特别累和特别烦闷的时候,需要有一些新鲜的元素来刺激以下神经,这就是我现在有的东西,也许也将使我今后要一辈子都有的东西。跳舞是我一生的兴趣,也许不会使我一辈子都能做到的,但是在现在我还能跳的时候,我就是要做一个dancing queen....
昨天晚上不知道自己喝了多少酒,但是居然开始感觉到有些昏昏沉沉,可能是因为最近几天身体不太舒服的原因吧。开始觉得是因为吃了太多的面包。突然发现自己的schedule又开始满了,就是因为作了太多的无用功在网页身上,我浪费了太多的时间,还没有radio show的消息,估计要被人骂了,这次。。。
好像好久没有跳舞的时候突然感觉到自己跳舞开始退步了。想到国内的那些曾经的伙计们都这么棒,开始有些不自然了,想着自己的进步是一种不可能的时候,就会觉得自己来到了英国是一个错误。英国没有认真的跳舞。。。。clubbing的时候都是些到处乱泡女生的家伙。。。。。。
伯明翰没有帅哥,这个是公认了的吧。chinese party不知道去了多少次了,哎,还是ximon比较帅,可能我对中国的男生已经开始失去了兴趣了,完蛋了。哈哈哈。。。不过昨天晚上好像阿paul很开心,泡了很多女生,并且声称昨天晚上有超多美女,可能是我没有注意观察,我的注意力全部集中在了酒和跳舞身上了。提前出来了,是因为觉得自己已经体力不支。。老了。果然是。。。。
生气,因为him这个死人头一晚上都在看美女,不知道是不是因为我没有发现帅哥所以觉得不公平,反正是气得要命。。怒啊。哎呀哎呀。。。。我也要找个帅哥泡泡,寻找一下心理平衡,谁有介绍啊??????lol
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中秋节到了,没想到明天就是,昨天去了nottingham,交了论文好像整个人都轻松了很多, 终于收到了stephen的信,原来我的host family,在断电了一整个星期的情况下,还是坚持了下来, 好险大家都没有事情,但是隔壁的一家人死了一个,很多棵大树倒下的时候砸死了房间里面的人, 好恐怖的天灾,真是没有想到这种事情居然会发生在我的身边,每次看电影的时候,都觉得这种 事情应该是几百年后的事情,真是没有想到会这么快。hurrican.....horrible....大家都是H啊。
明天开始要排练了。舞蹈虽然已经出来了一部分,但是我想让大家能够改得更好一些,当然, 也不希望push大家太多,毕竟我向大家都是跳舞的人,都想要自己的performance更加好一点。 10月2日在warwick的表演不知道会是什么样子,但是听warwick的朋友说好像根本没有人知道 这个演出的事情,30号会在liverpoor有一场表演,其实老实说我好像对表演这种东西越来越 没有什么兴趣了,关键是好像大家都开始对hiphop dance有点厌倦了,听说这次warwick有一个 breakdance society会出一段breaking dance,所以突然开始有点紧张,遇到同行总是怕自己不够 专业被人笑话,哈哈哈哈哈。。。。。欺负一下门外汉还可以啦。
总之加油吧。下个星期将会进行一场assessment的较量,不知道我能不能认真地完成他, 尽力把,听说很难,也很多,但是我下个星期还要把电台的东西做出来,就更加麻烦了。 不过我会努力的认真地去做的。哈哈哈哈。。。。不用担心啦。。。这句话应该是说给我哥听的。 加油加油加油。。。。。。koko加油。
很想爸爸妈妈,不知道他们都会怎么过明天的节日,听说大家都回去农场,给家里人打电话吧。 eva真幸福,爸爸很快会来看她。我就没有这么好彩了。只有打电话了。。。 中秋节快乐,爸爸妈妈,全家,和所有朋友。。。。。。。。
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日 子應該是很快樂的,但是我卻不知道 為什么很不開心。不知道應該怎么形容 這種感覺,隻是在掛斷電話的時候會不 想入睡。 很在意他的全部,會關心他是不是開心, 會記得每一個關于他的細節,會註意他的 一舉一動。但是如果是真的,為什么我會 不記得打給他說生日快樂。
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十分鍾之后我會嚮他第一個說生日快樂。可在 四個小時之后,我聽到叻他失望得聲音還是不 能想起來這個本有得承諾。我責怪自己的愚蠢 得時候,又在懷疑我究竟有多愛他。 一個愚蠢的誤會,但是為什么我不能夠原諒自己 居然真的不能想起來這個小小的承諾,根本或者 說連聽到他的聲音的時候我都想不起來。 的事情我卻根本就忘記叻,這是什么造成的。。 |
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而是自己,難以睡着的夜裏, 我一直在想,我是怎么叻? 為什么。。。。。。。。。
是我男朋友的生日嗎??? 為什么我真的不能想起來, 而且是一點也想不起來。。 如果是一件我很重視的事情 又怎么會這樣?這究竟是誰 齣暸錯。。還是我們大傢都 需要多一點時間去髮現這個 錯誤。。或者這隻是一個誤 會?還是別的什么。。。。
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我不知道自己該怎么做,還是 應該讓這件事情就這么過去, 為什么本來難過和生氣的人應 該是他,而現在則是我睡不着 我是怎么叻。。。
我都應該對他說一聲,生 日快樂,而這個生日快樂, 我說叻很久,也疼叻很久。 對不起。。。。 生日快樂。。。。。。 |
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昨天是A-LEVEL ^_^,為暸跳舞,就假裝一次年輕吧。這次去的隻有我和sabrina, 其實好像嚮來都是我
好想跟她說話,我也會跟着痲煩,哈哈哈哈。。。不過隻要有
有信心穿超短裙,GYM還是比較有傚的辦法。跳舞真是很開心
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英國 爆好的類型,讓我很 隻是不知
很高,很瘦,而且很帥,他過 這種感覺在
MSG讓我看,呵呵,上麵寫着他已經
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這種艷遇還是比較少見 ^_^。。。臉紅 隻是我很喜歡罷暸,后來知道他是 難怪他會比較喜 學學狼叫。。。。帥哥啊
很多人都要囬去叻,看來這個假期也
還要齣去買 晚上叻。。
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To My Dear Fd
MayQ![]()
Thank you for being my best friend,
Happy Birthday to you.![]()

love, from
KoKo


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